Lyrics - Everything Changed in Just One Night

Hi Friends,

Well this is a bit of a sad entry. Not sure how many of you know about a personal experience I went through seven years ago but I might as well share it with you now as this song took seven years to get out of my system and it's pretty intense. I won't go into details as it still hurts to talk about it. My only wishes are that through sharing this experience, I will be able to help other rape vicims not feel so alone and will be able to let the ghosts go, the ones that have haunted me for so long...

Seven years ago, just a few weeks before I moved to Ottawa, I was raped by a stranger who had considered me physical prey in a downtown Toronto bar. The man had put a pill in my drink and you can finish the rest of the story. It was a terrible experience which changed me forever. Unfortunately, this experience is shared by too many women.

Everything Changed in Just One Night

Words and Music by Rozalind MacPhail

Everything changed in just one night
When you chose to hurt me with your predator delight
And I didn't even know your name
When you slipped that pill into my drink
That left me unable to move or to think...

And things will never be the same
'Cause you took away my innocence
And replaced it with many years of shame
And I didn't realize that you were playing a selfish game
And I pray everyday that I was the only victim of your cruel ways

I can never go back to being the same girl that I was.
I can never feel as safe as you violated my sense of trust.
I can never look at another man in the same loving way.
I can never open myself up in that childlike, beautiful place.

'Cause everything changed in just one night
When you chose to hurt me with your predator delight
And I didn't even know your name
When you slipped that pill into my drink
That left me unable to move or to think

I will try to move on and let the past go.
I will try to remember the beautiful moments that I used to know.
I will try to forgive you.
I will try to be brave.
But please be careful of my tender heart
As I'm scared that it will break.

Things will just never be the same again.